MY FRIEND AND I

As we evolve we continuously meet people. People we might call friends, some enemies, some family and many others depending on the depth and value of the relationship. But do we realise that our enemies were once our friends? How then did they pivot to being our enemies?

I once had a friend who was very good to me. She helped me in my times of need . She was caring, loving and loyal. She would even advice me on certain occasions like a mother. I told her things I could tell no one. I trusted her. Funny thing is, I looked at her as a friend but she looked at me like a perch consistently disturbing her. She would always go discussing me with her real friends. I asked myself, why she never told me things she think I did that offended her but rather found it more convenient telling others and lashing me outside. I could only think of one answer.....SHE NEVER SAW ME AS A FRIEND! 

78% of the people we love will never love us back equally. They would take your love for granted. Some would just like to have you around so that they can eat fat from you or maneuver you if they feel they can. Most people are too quick to call people their friends and too quick to jump out of such friendships. I used to place caution on some girls who decide on not having female friends at all but my dear, after my countless experiences and episodes with my female friends, I can almost say the same. But having the opposite sex as a better friend is not the surest bet either.

With all the drama that has happened in my life, my philosophy on friendship is this"You are a better friend to yourself than anyone can be". I know that they are some people out there who are extremely lucky to have friends they can confide in and trust .....GOOD FRIENDS! I'd say thank God for them. If your ship can struggle to not sink in a raging a storm, I'd  say that the ship is good!

You might still want to know what happened between My false friend and I.....I was bitter, angry and sad after I heard all the bad and monstrous things she said about me. I  even cried myself to sleep that night, I felt the heavy hands of betrayal strangling me and I was gasping for air. I had the urge to confront her but I decided to let it go. The only thing I could do was to stay away from her forever.I did the most courageous thing ever. I FORGAVE HER! Oh yes I did but I definitely won't forget it. But now I've discovered my new problem. I no longer have the heart to accommodate a new friend .....My head keeps telling me to give somebody else a chance but my heart does not want to hear of it or even think it.